Thursday, July 27, 2006

horri... horriday....

It's amazing how much one can learn about people around him/her when travelling on a group tour. During a recent trip to Hong Kong, I was quite amused to find the following categories of people...

The Rookie Indian Chief
These are the kind of people who in any circumstance, refuse to admit that they are a rookie. One of the women in my group has never in her life been to Hong Kong for a tour. But she refuses to admit her cluelessness and weeks ahead of the trip, began planning her itinerary and checking out internet websites on "where to go", "what to do" during the trip. The best part is, such people are also keen to show-off their "intelligence" by taking the lead. It's as though nobody else would know what to do if she does not lead the group. End result? Apparently this lady led her tiny party of four to purchase Madam Trussard museum entry tickets which were packaged with a tram ticket at HK$120. When all the party needed to pay for was the museum entry, as they already have a pre-paid MTR card that enables them to travel on the tram without paying extra. And not to mention travelling a long way to have Tsu Cha dinner which cost the party HK$70 per head for cooking fee, on top of what they were already paying for the ingredients and dishes. When in a place where bargains are aplenty like HK, she's certainly not cut out to lead the pack.

The Lost Ones
I don't know about other people but no matter how familiar I am with the foreign city, I always find that having a good map makes me feel secure about exploring the city. That's all the more important when one does not understand the language in which road signs are written, or generally have a bad sense of direction. If all else fails, finding someone to ask is the key. In this trip, it amazes me how people can happily wander around a foreign place without taking note which way they came from nor bothering to look at road signs. At each traffic junction, the poor lost ones would turn to one another to ask "which way?? which way??" and still not have a clue where to go. And please, dear ones, you don't have gold in your mouth. So please open them and ask for directions.

The Ones who Laugh First
These are the ones who tend to make the biggest fool of themselves. I'm referring to those who laugh at other experienced travellers for bringing a bigger than necc luggage for a shopping trip to HK, or those who think they had the best deals simply because they bought Espirit clothing at S$10 cheaper than in Singapore and thought they had the best deal. Well hello hello on check out day when these are the same people who realised they have to purchase additional luggage to contain their shopping, or people who discover to their dismay that there is an Espirit factory outlet which had the same clothes at even lower bargains.

The Blamers
Perhaps I would see them as the most irritating sort of the group. These are people who don't bother to find their own programme, who don't have a mind of their own and their itineraries depend on what other people have suggested or commented. Then at the end of the trip, they would say things like "aiyah... XX shouldn't have told us this and that cos YY said it's something else. We should have gone there... " etc. It's like... hello... you can listen but ultimately you make your own choices what you want to do with your time there. So quit blaming anyone or anything.

As for me?? which type am I?? I'm the kind that works best on my own. Equipped with a map so I know where to go, I plan my walks and cover every inch I want to explore. Street market bargains may be attractive to some but I believe in "ai pi, ai chi".... cheap and good quality so I can wear it more than once. And most of all, walking on my own is the best as it gives me the most freedom... I can decide which shop I want to go to, which small lane I want to turn into away from the main road to explore the place, what do I want to do for meals and where to go. There's no need to blame anything or anyone if I missed a spot cos I planned my own adventure. I'm the Lone Wanderer... A little anti-social I admit, but at the very least, the decisions I make do not make anybody else's holiday into a horriday...kekeke

*pardon my rambling... I'm just enjoying a little self-entertainment from people-watching during my trip

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Your Animal Personality



Your Power Animal: Eagle
Animal You Were in a Past Life: Whale
You are active, a challenger, and optimistic.
Hard-working, you are always working towards a set goal.

Monday, July 03, 2006

Face-Lift.... almost literally

Sometimes I wonder why do some people insist on sticking their face so close to the elevator door... it's almost as if they wanted to kiss the door while they are in the lift... and when the lift door opens, the person on the outside gets a shock of nearly running into a human wall when they want to step into the lift compartment. The most champion of the lot are those who stick their noses next to the lift door and somehow refuses to budge to make way for incoming lift passengers. Afterall, if everyone is going to the same floor (in this case, the carpark) and if there's plenty of room in the lift compartment, there's no harm in taking a step back right? You will still get out of the lift with plenty of time to spare before the door closes....

(lift door opens)

A: (nearly bumping into lift-door kisser) oops sorry...

B: (Stares blankly at A, refuses to move)

A: Is this lift going up or down?

Others: Down (B continues to stare mutely)

A: err... ok (makes a move to enter the lift)

B: (still staring blankly and not moving despite plenty of space behind her... while Others are wondering why is B is holding up everyone when A clearly wants to enter the lift.)

A: (makes a step to squeeze in nevertheless... ignoring B's idiocy)

B: (Finally moves aside from lift-door kissing position because B is obviously too big build to feel comfortable squeezing with someone else)

And finally everyone makes their way to the carpark level. *shake head*

Sleepy monday...

Arggh... I hate this feeling of medication-induced sleepy lethargy... makes me feel as though I shouldn't be awake when the effect should have worn off in last night's sleep. And the cool weather didn't help... almost makes me feel like shutting my eyes when I was driving. Believe me... the persuasion of heavy eyelids was pretty tough to fight off in the morning drive...

Called up helpdesk last friday due to some msn problems I had... and the episode just made me wish that people would stop to listen and understand what the problem is before rattling off standard answers....

Me: Hi, I've got problems connecting to msn. I understand that the msn server is currently experiencing problems so I can't connect but I've accidentally....

Helpdesk: err.. the msn server is currently down so everyone can't connect.

Me: Yes I know that. I was saying I accidentally installed msn version 7.5. How can I uninstall and have it as version 7.0 again?

Helpdesk: everyone is using msn version 7.0.

Me: (slightly frustrated) Yes I know that. I'm asking how do I uninstall version 7.5 so I can install version 7.0 again?

Helpdesk: you'll have to uninstall version 7.5

Me: (totally lost it) argh... forget it.

Obviously the helpdesk person wasn't using her ears or brain to listen to what I just said. otherwise she wouldn't be repeating everything I just said... sigh,....

Monday, June 05, 2006

Nightmares....

It's been a long time since I remembered any dreams I've had when I sleep, much less a nightmare. Last night, it was one of those rare moments when I have a really bad nightmare. I dreamt that there was this dark presence with a truly evil voice tempting, coaxing, persuading me to give up the struggle, as it tries to engulf and overwhelming me in some evil black blob (for lack of a better word to describe it). The blob was a fog-like swarmp, fluid, like a thick oily liquid and moving fast to trap my legs and one arm within it. I struggled to get free with my other arm but I had nothing to hang on to and my free arm couldn't move.

For some reason I knew it was evil, and while I couldn't hear what the voice was saying, it almost sounded like the devil was talking to me.... threatening me and discouraging me from freeing myself. In my sleep, I began to say a prayer.... and I was sort of "sleep-talking" my prayer. The most amazing thing is everytime I come to the word "God", I could feel myself waking up a bit, in peace, and my mouth mumbling. And you know how some dreams continue themselves, almost like a sequel. And this one did. No sooner did I fall asleep again, the blob tried to swallow me again. Again I mumbled a prayer and got free.

This went on a few times... in fact I remember "praying" myself awake 3 times and the fourth time I fell asleep, the attack came on even stronger than before. It almost felt as though I could feel my whole room filled to the brim with this dark presence and it was threatening to stop me from breathing so I won't mumble and "pray" myself awake again. In a desperate cry for breath, I prayed "save me, God" and I could feel myself gasping for air at the word "God" as I woke up... eyes wide open as I felt a sense of peace and calm decend upon me and spread throughout the room.

Sounds frightening and supernatural I know... but when God gives a reminder call this loud and clear, it just goes to show one thing. I've been backsliding for too long and it's time to return to Him.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

bak chang......no more....

After indulging myself in plenty of bak chang and "peng kuey" over the past weekend, I'm feeling pretty much like a stuffed bak chang myself...and seriously, this is NOT the time to get fat. Afterall the Great Singapore Sale is here and it's time to look out for cheap but nice clothes!!

Anyone of you hit the shops yet?? Heard from a colleague tht M)phosis has got some pretty good bargains... with some items going at 50% discount!

Sometimes, after being in a certain job after a period of time, one sort of longs for a break. And it's not the vacation kind of break I'm referring to. Rather.... it's a break from the focus and need to use certain skills properly. For example, my work involves a certain amount of writing - choosing words to use, phrasing of sentences, looking out for grammar. And sometimes I get so tired for this word craft that I just want to throw proper English out of the window for a while, say on forums or blogs.

or maybe I'm just getting too stressed up..... *readsd above* What a load of rambling nonsense.

anyway, the point is, I'm still alive.... heh

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Have been neglecting my blog for some time.... hmmm... guess I haven't been inspired to write much these past few weeks... (or is it months already??)

Anyway been feeling that I've been staying at home a little too much these few months and seem to be losing touch of what's happening outside... perhaps it's long overdue that I start meeting up with some friends that I haven't met up for some time... heh....

Friday, March 31, 2006

Swish and Flick....

12", Holly, Dragon
You scored 47 wisdom, 38 bravery, 15 emotional, and 11 martyrdom!
Holly is a powerful protective wood that good for use against evil, but it also represents dreams and fertility. Your dragon's heartstring core makes your wand very effective in hexes.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 58% on wisdom
You scored higher than 60% on bravery
You scored higher than 31% on emotional
You scored higher than 6% on martyrdom

What's Your Wand

hmmm...

But i don't intend to be hungry or bald anytime soon.... *gasp*

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

mourning for a kitten...

Today I did a terrible thing.... I found a kitten at my office building yesterday morning and apparently it has been abandoned by its mother since sunday. It was hungry and its eyes were still closed... barely a few days old. I tried to feed it some milk this morning but after thinking through, there's no way I can take care of the kitten even if I brought it home... newborns need to be fed kitten formula milk once every 2 hours... there's no one at home that can take care of it.... I asked a few colleagues and most already have cats at home to take care of and unwilling to take on another. There seemed to be no alternative and it would have died if it continued to stay outside without the mother.... out of hunger and dehydration, suffering while it died.

I brought the poor kitten to SPCA this evening, and the probability is that it will be put down humanely. The minute I stepped out of SPCA I felt so sad... as though I had been the murderer surrendering the kitten to SPCA. I cried and cried on my way home and still crying now as I thought about the kitten. It was so adorable and such a fighter too... spirited kitten. If only the mother cat hadn't abandoned it at such a young age... it would have survived... it would have had a life....

It was a terrible thing to do and how I hate myself for having done it....I do hope they feed the kitten tonight before it's put to sleep tomorrow... at least it would have slept well... having satisfied its hunger....

I;m sorry kitten.... bye...

Monday, March 20, 2006

hehe... black wings... just how i like them....


Brooding FaerieYou are the Brooding Faerie. You are always working over something in your mind. Not exactly thoughtful, but... brooding. Something has happened to you that requires a lot of thinking over; and it's probably not good.
Wings: Black
Power: Darkness
Sexual appeal: You are a distant and vague person; the perfect type to try to win over. Many guys see you as a challenge that they'd love to overcome, with your heart as the prize. Maybe after you're in love you'll be able to let the darkness in your heart pass.
What you look for in a guy: You look for the same, dark-emotional guy, someone that reflects your feelings and that has the same outlook as you. Usually he has dark/black eyes and hair, and sometimes he even wears mascara and eye shadow, but strangely enough you don't seem to attract these kinds of guys. Go figure.
Take this
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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Smokin'.... literally....

My notebook suffered a black-out yesterday and my company's helpdesk has loaned me a spare unit for my working purposes. I managed to salvage my hard disk and RAM from my notebook and have it switched to the loan unit so that i can continue to do my stuff at a proper speed...

and just now the IBM guys came to test my notebook and in the middle of it, the notebook started smoking.... literally.... well... that's a first.

Somehow i find the incident rather hilarious because i think it's a first my helpdesk guys have encountered... and considering my notebook is only 1.5 years old.... it's a rather clear sign that my notebook would rather "commit suicide" than to be overworked by me... hahaha

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Feel free to complain!!

No self-analysis is complete without hearing the negative side of things... so here goes... click here and choose 5-6 negative words that you think most aptly describes me!!

Friday, March 10, 2006

The Dance

The Dance
A lone shade
mutely waits, breathing
snake-like wisps spiraling
in the humid breeze.

A nameless tune
hummed softly, solo
in the chorus
of midnight traffic.

The corner window

on the top floor,
singled out
from the fluorescent parade.

Twin silhouettes
waltzing, within the lighted screen,
tangled and intertwined
in a liberated dance.

A callous epitaph,
mourned to opened eyes,
dissipating the warmth
of the forgotten spectre.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

HASH(0x8db5d4c)


You would be a Forest Spirit. You are quiet and
calm, and go with which ever way the wind
blows you.

INFO: A Forest Spirit is a faerie-like creature
found in the legends, folklore, and mythology
of many different cultures. They are
generally humanoid in form, though of a
higher, spiritual nature and so possessed of
preternatural abilities, along with such
mystical qualities as otherworldly beauty and
grace, an ethereal glow, wings, or the like.

YOUR WORDS:
Breezey
Growth
Nature


What Kind of Mythical Creature are You? (WITH PICS FOR ALL 12 RESULTS)
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Thursday, March 02, 2006

Time to hit the battlefield

Maybe it's just me... I noticed a certain trend in my own behaviour... i.e. I tend to play more PC games when I'm stressed up or working hard at something. Previously work was rather busy and stressful, so I found myself finishing the entire Battle for Middle Earth campaign in a matter of 2 weeks....

and now I'm devoting time to finish as much of my dissertation as possible each week, I hitting the games again.... only thing is... it's Battle for Middle Earth II!!!! Yipee... felt so glad that I bought the game... and seriously I think they should make all computers so super powerful that you don't have to keep upgrading your specs so that you can play the latest games.... :S

BFME II seems as exciting as BFME I to play.... only thing is... the battalions are bigger, more complicated and you have to purchase your own upgrades to the barracks and archery range. Hey whatever happened to auto-upgrade which was so cool in the first game? I like the create-a-hero feature that enables you to create your own hero.... and BFME II is packed with so many options to play -- campaign, skirmish or even a War of the Ring campaign that is similar to the card game... heh... not to mention there are more scenarios to play since this is based more on the book than just the films... kekeke

It's gaming time.... kekekeke

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

tell me what you think...

It's time i find out what people think about me.... Click here!

Thursday, February 09, 2006

how abnormal am I?? I thought I was mad!!


You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul.

You are at low risk for having a borderline personality. It is unlikely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

Monday, February 06, 2006

What luck...!

I'm never a person who believes much in luck... except I tend to think that I'm not that lucky most of the time. But the past weekend has been surprisingly lucky....

Went to a friend's place for mahjong and luck was shining on my side... even after "bao-ing" one round of loses, I emerged the biggest winner with $20... kekeke we played small lah... only 20-40 cents for one "tai"....

And on the way to collect my car from the carpark after the game, who should I see but a parking pontianak standing right in front of my coupon-less car!! And again lady luck was with me for she was looking at her sms and hasn't had time to look at my car. I quickly opened the door and drove off... *phew*

Then at another friend's place, just as we were parking, we saw the parking pontianak again!! We quickly tore off a coupon and placed it in the car to avoid the summons... kekeke...

And at my friend's friend's place ... (it sounds confusing yeh... but I don't really know the house owner... ) there was a game of blackjack. Although we played for a short time, I won $4... kekeke... and that was on top of the winnings i had earlier in the day from mahjong... Yahoo!!

though winnings are small... any winning is good luck. not to mention evading the parking pontianaks!! What luck!!

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Gong Xi Gong Xi...

... But not neccessarily Fa Cai... went to play blackjack at a colleague's place during the third day of Chinese New Year and the host had such good luck that everyone lost... almost every penny they bet. hmmm... gambling during Chinese New Year seem to have lost its shine on me... esp when I'm losing... kekeke

Anyway, Happy Lunar New Year and hope it bore more good fortunes to you than me. :D

Friday, January 27, 2006

I'm a Morning Grouch...

Yep... no doubt about it. It's be confirmed, stamped and verified. I'm definitely not a morning person. Perhaps it's because I'm never getting enough sleep. The silly body system refuses to feel sleepy till 2 plus in the morning and by the time I wake up at 7 plus for work, the grouch has surfaced.

I prefer mornings when I can wake up and quietly go about my own stuff... get a shower, get dressed for work and just leave for work. It would be most ideal if I can have a nice hot cup of coffee peacefully as well.... but somehow mom seems to think that morning is the best time to chat. Can't blame her really cos I'm never around until late at night, by which time she has gone to sleep.

Simple chatting.. i can do in the morning. Simply don't nag at me for doing this, not doing that, should do this, not do that etc. When that happens, the grouch roars...

So there it is... I'm a confirmed morning grouch. More of a nocturnal creature cats are....

Friday, January 13, 2006

Thank God it's a sunny Friday morning!

Finally!! After more than a week of cold and wet days, today I woke up to a sunny morning, complete with a nice clear blue sky. Thank God!!

The cold weather has been quite a challenge to me, having caught a cold during the Hari Raya Haji public holiday. Been trying to recover from a cold, sore throat and cough all at the same time. Rather trying on the body and especially since cold weather makes me perpetually HUNGRY...

*ahem ahem* Almost finished one entire box of Strepsils but the good thing is the sore throat is gone. Now there's just the stupid cough to deal with...

I look forward to more sunny mornings like this.. :D

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Earthy Brown...

Took the "What's your true color" test on Tickle.com and this is what i get... kekeke

Your true color is Brown!

You're brown, a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy. Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart. With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver. And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision. Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music. Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view. Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart.

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Here comes 2006...

Happy New Year...!!! and a brand new year 2006 starts.
Actually it's just like any other day for me... doesn't seem to quite strike me as to whether anything will be different this year. Sounds boring huh?

Nope... no new year resolutions for me... for I've never believed in setting them in the first place since I already know that I'm not one who can keep them... oh well...

Sometimes it just makes me feel like a hamster at a wheel... keep running and running and nothing seems different. heh...

Just rambling...

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Why Christmas is Merry

Why Christmas is Merry

No white snowflakes,
nor presents and cakes.
No Santa Claus,
nor carolling songs.

Just clear skies,
stars twinkling bright.
A deep silence,
of peace and reverence.

For eons ago,
in a manger's hollow.
A hope ignites,
on the very same night.

Christ was born,
God's only son.
Forever we celebrate
A love none can equate.

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Capitalist Pig!!

Capitalist Pig
You are 57% Rational, 57% Extroverted, 57% Brutal, and 42% Arrogant.

You are the Capitalist Pig! This means that you are less emotional than most, focusing more on logic. You are also more selfish, greedy, and care very little for the well-being of others, hence you probably hold capitalistic political views. You are also an extrovert, like most of the people in the hallmark capitalistic country of America. Despite these traits, you are surprisingly not very arrogant, tending to view yourself as equal to others. Which seems strange given that you are so mean and brutal to others at times. In conclusion, your personality defect is that you are a bit too logical, rather unemotional, way too extroverted, and also very brutal in regards to others. You may even be a bit insecure about yourself, little piggy. So stop being so selfish and calculating and learn to see people as people, man!


To put it less negatively:

1. You are more RATIONAL than intuitive.

2. You are more EXTROVERTED than introverted.

3. You are more BRUTAL than gentle.

4. You are more HUMBLE than arrogant.



Compatibility:

Your exact opposite is the Starving Artist.

Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Smartass, the Braggart, and the Spiteful Loner.

If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits.






Link: The Personality Defect Test written by saint_gasoline on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Morbid but fun...

I know it's rather late to rave about it but pardon me for not catching the movie when it was in the theatres. Anyway, I just saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory on vcd and I thought Tim Burton was brilliant!! He not only injected his style into the movie, but I thought he brought out the morbidity of Roald Dahl's characteristic style so well!! The oompa-loompas are extremely disturbing I find... which was pretty much what Roald Dahl wanted to accomplish...

And Johnny Depp was excellent as Willy Wonka,... keke... A pity though that the movie has to cater to the mass market... and hence nobody really died in the show. If i remember the book correctly, I thought Violet got so round and fat with juice that she burst... heh....

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My blog is worth $2,822.70.
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Monday, December 12, 2005

When is enough... enough?

In a relationship, when is enough really enough?? True... I agree that a relationship is built on truth and trust in each other... but have there been times when a person has done something really stupid and it was a dilemma of telling the truth and therefore upsetting the partner... or telling a white lie... hoping that what he/she don't know doesn't hurt??

and how is it that two persons who love each other can find so much to quarrel about?? what is there to quarrel?

I don't like quarrels...and frankly i don't believe that a relationship means being happy every moment. I believe that in every relationship there are ups and downs... the ups are the happy moments, but there are bound to be times when two people will disagree... the downs. That was how God made us in the first place... with free will... otherwise He might as well have manufactured us a perfect robots. And because I believe every relationship is imperfect, even our relationship with God for we are humans and we are flawed, no matter how much a couple disagree, I feel that is part and parcel of a relationship. How disagreements are talked out are part and parcel of the work that is required to keep a relationship healthy. Yes work! Whoever said that relationships are pure enjoyment?? That's only the partial by-product of a well-managed relationship.

But why is it that some people feel the need to raise the question or even seem to threaten to break up every time there is a disagreement? Shouldn't the fact that you love him/her be enough for you to stop you from even mentioning that? And when will enough be enough... that the person on the receiving end might just decide to take that threat seriously once and for all...

How I wish I can say never.

Monday, December 05, 2005

Your job is to LISTEN!! Not interrupt!

How annoying can it get when you call a helpdesk to solve a problem and before you can fully describe what is wrong, the person on the helpdesk keeps interrupting you by jumping to her own conclusions about what went wrong or about your problem???

Highly annoying. When will they ever teach helpdesk and service people to listen, think then speak? Not that I'm going to take half an hour to tell her the problem i encountered. If only she would just shut up and listen then I could have ended that call in just 5 minutes instead of taking 15 minutes to disagree with her wrong conclusions and elaborate what went wrong!!

Simply a waste of time.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

No queue... but where's the cab??

I've set a new record for myself today... was trying to get to work and unfortunately, me dad took the car today. Spent 45 minutes calling 5 different cab companies on the house phone and handphone simultaneously... and no cab...

There are like what?? 7 cab companies in singapore with their own fleets of thousands of cabs... and there's not a single cab who can take a call at my estate. Yet i see cabs of different colors and companies sporting the On Call sign as they drove by... what happened to my call??

Sigh....

i like blue... kekeke

Your Hair Should Be Blue

Wild, brilliant, and out of control.
You're a risk taker with an eye to the future.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

I want my life back...

Ever since I started working, it felt like an endless struggle to earn enough so that I can save some for rainy days. But somehow in my world, the rain doesn't seem to stop. Somehow or other, once I've accumulated some savings, a big ticket item will come along and I'm back to square one of struggling. And I wish my mom will stop asking for more money every single time. I don't have money to give her... not any more than what I can give now. Why wouldn't my parents believe me when I say I have none to spare??

I seldom shop... only recently because I realised that most of my working clothes are 2 years old and wearing out. I've got my own bills to pay e.g. phone, internet, insurance... and on top of that I've got to pay for my dad's car - insurance, servicing, road tax, car park. And my mom's medical bills etc. My yearly increment can't beat the yearly inflation rates and my dad recently decided to stop paying housekeeping. Fortunately my brother also contributed and paid what he can... but mom, please stop asking me for more money. Please stop buying 4D so that you can at least have a few $10 notes spare for the month. Please stop buying large quantities of food that no one can finish because we don't eat at home that often, so no point letting it go to waste. Please try not to tailor clothes at $200 a piece. I really can't afford it. And Dad, please think twice about changing cars because I have no money to help you support it. Let's just be satisfied with what we already have and live simply so that at the very least, I can save some for rainy storms. At the very least, I will have a life back... instead of being a slave to money.

Monday, November 14, 2005

feeling the urge to chomp on somebody now...

Your Animal Personality

Your Power Animal: Eagle

Animal You Were in a Past Life: Whale

You are active, a challenger, and optimistic.
Hard-working, you are always working towards a set goal.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

What does it mean...?

What does it mean when someone says they haven't had enough of the freedom?? What does it mean when someone says they want you to respect them??

And I wonder, how often do the people who asks for these, look within themselves and think through whether they have given that same level of freedom and respect that you've been giving them and yet they demand for more??

I wonder...

*in a voodoo doll mode... wishing I can stick some needles in a certain voodoo doll*

Monday, October 24, 2005

Scream

Saw this poem by a contemporary Indian poet and some of the images really strike me as haunting and bleak... but there are some parts that I still don't quite get from the poem...Posted it on DPS (S) to find out what others can interpret from it but so far no reply yet... wonder if any of you guys have any ideas....

(From Random Descent, 2005)
Scream

by Jayanta Mahapatra

A scream never ends. It tries
to be kind, but our hatred keeps
coming between us. The night stands
like a conqueror over it, the spear of darkness
held in her hands, the centre of everything.

Like a dark stubborn child, the scream.
Like its mother, cold, aloof.
It is inside my head all the time,
as days and shadows pass by,
till it wakens me to a different reality,
till it dislikes me for its throne's sake.

Ashes of sobs, the baying of hounds,
the snarling jaws of ceremony, the vomit of iron.
A scream tests warm, small innocences,
divests the long moment of its manhood.

Wild as the Dance, the Winds and Flood,
its deep streets are mortared with bone and blood.
Blindfold your scream again, sweet Mariam,
with the quick blood flowing down your seven-year thighs.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

People are like Onions...

We might have heard this expression often enough but most of the time, we are just referring to how much we know about a person i.e. their external vs internal thoughts & character....

but that's not my line of thinking... People are like onions in terms of how they've chosen to live their lives... There are people who have grown up knowing only those things that happen around them, where their whole lives are governed by immediate concerns. Things like growing up, getting married, settling down, getting the right job, their families, their kids. Some of us in Singapore might refer to them as heartlanders. To me, they are like the core of an onion, shelled in and untouched by happenings outside of their immediate perspective, not knowing and not wishing to know what's outside of that shell.

Then there are those who are concerned with current affairs around the world, who read the news and know what's happening outside of their comfort zone. They know more about what's going on but most only scratch the surface. These people are like the next couple of layers above and around the core. It's not that they are not interested... they are... but they don't go beyond just gaining common information so they don't sound ignorant.

Then there are those who get to the roots of that knowledge. They can grasp and understand what are the forces at play. They can look at politics and understand what was not written in the news but yet play an powerful part in influencing how things turn out. These people are what I think the outer layer of the onion, pretty much in touch with everything, interior and exterior, and they know how to manipulate that information to get what they want, to benefit themselves and their situation, or even that of others....

and for me... I want to break out of that shell....

just rambling....

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

I should have known better...

I should have known better... than to start reading a new storybook on a weekday night. I should have known my reading habits by now but still, I failed to resist the temptation.

And now I regret... having stayed up till 5 am this morning, I actually finished reading the entire book (not a large book). And with eyes attempting to stay closed everytime I blinked and a brain that is more asleep than awake, having rested for less than 2 hours, I'm paying the price for giving in to my temptation to read a book... argh....

sleepy, tired... I need my bed....

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

D&D - Dungeons and Dragons... kekeke

Hehehe.... it's my time to say I'm having so much fun!!! kekekee the reason?? My brother bought a pair of speakers for his room and after trying to arrange for the speakers, the amplifier, his huge flatscreen TV, dvd player and PS2 in his room, he has run out of space for anything else. The result?? He passed me his Xbox!!! muahahaha...

Been having fun cutting down monsters and skeletons last night, playing Dungeons and Dragons - Heroes. kekekeke.... Now not only can I play Battle for Middle-Earth on my computer as and when I wish to, I can simply plug in and play Xbox games too!! and along with the Xbox, he passed me all the games he had bought so far.... hehehe it's PLAYTIME!!!!

Friday, October 07, 2005

You scored as Samantha Jones. Your Samantha Jones! Your a power driven woman, with sex never too far off mind. You tend to get a little distant with your friends sometimes, but you just have a different way of handling situations. You know who wears the pants in your reltaionships with men. Your the life of the party, and god dammit no one will tell you different!

Samantha Jones

60%

Carrie Bradshaw

40%

Charlotte York

40%

Miranda Hobbs

20%

Which of the 4 Sex & the City Gals are YOU?
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Monday, October 03, 2005

I know what you're thinking....

Wished I was something different though..... kekeke

You scored as Jean Grey. Jean Grey is likely the most powerful X-Man. She loves Cyclops very much but she has a soft spot for Wolverine. She's psychic so she can sense how others are feeling and tries to help them. She also has to control her amazing powers or the malevolent Phoenix entity could take control of her and wreak havok. Powers: Telekinetic, Telepathic

Jean Grey

75%

Wolverine

70%

Emma Frost

65%

Cyclops

65%

Rogue

60%

Iceman

55%

Colossus

55%

Gambit

55%

Storm

50%

Beast

25%

Nightcrawler

25%

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Thursday, September 29, 2005

The 12th

Disclaimer: I hope this piece doesn't offend anyone, particularly the family of the victim. It's just an expression of my personal opinion that this could have been avoided if the more were done earlier. What's important and what's not....? Does it have to wait till it hits the news on the front page or when lives are lost?

The 12th
Today I made the news.
Amongst outlook on the economy
and morning Orchard declared ERP-free.
While ASEAN looks for closer links
and Microsoft and Symantec encounter high-end piracy

Today I made the news.
When Hock Kee owners move out
and Simei neighbours go to court.
Whilst SAVH and NCSS dispute over authority
and social skepticism looms over organizations for charity.

Today I made the news.
As Indonesians rage over cut fuel subsidies
and labour strike plagues Manmohan Singh.
When Tokyo is thrilled over a giant squid
while Silk Road's reopening looks like a longer wait.

Today I made the news.
Amongst an unknown teacher made prime minister
and criticisms of Germany's political disarray.
While French soldiers storm a car ferry
and British assures Iran of diplomacy.

Today I made the news.
The third this month, the twelfth this year.
Amongst Malaysia's 70, Philippines' 260
and Indonesia's 540 as the dengue runs check-free.
Today I made the news.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

macho men...


Hehe... while most gals go gaga over the blond elf in LOTR or the rugged looking ranger... I thought one of the characters that struck me as handsome and macho and I liked was Eomer... kekeke... and disappointingly the LOTR movie website didn't have enough nice photos of him... kekeke... so while I'm watching the trilogy over again on DVD, just can't help getting over the fact that I think he's cute and manly... kekeke

urgh.... dragging myself

That's what I get for staying up late for 3 nights consecutively to play games.... been playing Battle for Middle Earth and just realised how addictive the game is... heh....

must say that the team who worked together to create the LOTR films are really quite a bunch of geniuses.... they even constructed the sets for Edoras on a conservation site and restored everything back to normal after filming... definitely worth the millions they spent in getting the film to look, feel and sound real....

... and that's the result of staying up late also to watch the mini-features in my LOTR DVD set... kekekeke

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

mindless blogging of a thick-skinned kittyn

Just thought I might as well do some mindless blogging before I start my day...

Anticipating a few fellow animals' birthdays these couple of months and realised that as the years go by, it gets tougher and tougher to think of good birthday presents to get them... I, for one, believe in giving presents that are eventually useful... something that can be worn, used or applied... whatever it is. I simply dunno what to do with those cutesy ornaments that I sometimes receive from acquaintances and even colleagues during christmas and I pretty much prefered a food voucher than a cutesy paperweight.

So for those of you who happen to be peeking in now and then, let's make things simple. Instead of giving you one long wishlist of things that are too expensive that you can't afford to get me, or things that I would rather receive from certain particular people... here it is.

I need either a wallet or a sleek laptop bag that can fit my 15" office-issued notebook. Yes piggy... the wallet you've given me two years ago is starting to show some signs of wear and tear... sorry abt the rough use.... but it has also been the most widely travelled among my previous wallets... Nothing too expensive or fancy... as you know, nothing appeals to me more than plain black. Braun Buffel might be a good guide on the type I want... kekeke...

so here you go.... from a thick-skinned kittyn

Monday, September 19, 2005

To be or not to be...

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent.
Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.

You would make an excellent:

Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor
Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer
Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer
Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor

The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

Friday, September 16, 2005

anybody wants to lend a hand??

DHlynette
Congratulations! You are Lynette Scavo, the
ex-career woman who traded the boardroom for
boredom, mixed with moments of sheer panic as
the mother of four unmanageable kids.


Which Desperate Housewife are you?
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Saturday, September 10, 2005

seven things...

Seven things that scare me
That my brain stops working and becomes lazy
That I fall critically ill and my loved ones got to take care of me my whole life
That I can't give my loved ones happiness
Of being alone forever
That I lose interest in improving myself
That I become totally frivolous - that all I care about are fashion and looks
That I have to become financially dependent

Seven things I like the most
Reading a good book
Strong black coffee
Sleeping in bed during rainy days
Watching a good movie - whether in a cinema or on DVD
Travelling and seeing how people live in their daily lives
Trying out good food
Hanging out with my friends

Seven important things in my room
My books
My DVD collection
Gifts / letters from my friends
My bed - well it has to be comfy for my problematic back... and who wouldn't want a comfy snuggle in a good bed on a rainy day
My phone / handphone - i feel so handicapped without one
My pictures
My cat

Seven random facts about me
Just went shopping around Chennai with my boss
Very vain about my weight & body - even though I admit I have less to worry about than some people
Haven't practiced playing my instrument for months though I love playing it
I tend to procrastinate things that I don't like to do
I can read for hours 24/7 if it's a good book I enjoy
I like to write but I don't pay much attention to style
My favourite holiday is simply lazing around the beach and uncontactable though I'm scared of being alone and totally cut off

Seven things to do before I die
Travel around Europe and see more of history
Tell everyone I love that I love them
Learn how to cook really well so I can cook for my loved ones
Learn as much as I can (so I know I didn't live in vain)
Get married
Have kids and raise them the way I wasn't (though I think they'll drive me up the wall at some point)
Spend romantic evenings strolling through the park with my loved one hand in hand

Seven things I can do
Make brownies
Be clever with words and write some sort of poetry
Play a Chinese instrument
Lend a good ear / shoulder to my friends when the need arises
Find my direction quickly in new places
Be adaptable to wherever I am
Solve simple computer problems on my own

Seven things I can't do
Dive
Be tactful all the time (I'm too straightforward)
Be patient and control my temper (I tend to lose it sometimes... esp after a long day)
Rollerblade
Wake up bright and cheery in the early mornings (I'm super grouchy when I do that)
Eat without a care (yes, I am vain and eating lots cost money too)
Control my finances (I try but it still needs improvement)

Seven things I say the most
Shit
Fuck
Idiot
Yup
Oops
Sorry
Damn

Seven celeb crushes
Brad Pitt
Richard Gere (big time!!!)
Val Kilmer
River Phoenix (when he was still alive)
Harrison Ford
Patrick Stewart (He is one sexy bald man!!)
Shah Ruk Khan!!!!!

Seven people who will have to do this
Purple Dusk (she already did it... she started it first)
Piggy
Panda
DP
X-men
Yuen Li
Killahurtz (sorry to drag you into this... i need to make the number... haha)

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

woke up on the wrong side of bed...

Maybe I woke up on the wrong side of the bed or maybe it just happens to be the day when people choose to piss me off...

had a stupid reporter who told me that the deadline for a reply to his query is today and saw an email in the morning from him, sent yesterday evening rushing me to give an answer... *pissed* How would he like it if I told him his deadline is next week and then start rushing him yesterday as though he has missed it by a month? idiots....

Then received a silly phonecall promoting some newsletter about taxation and the person trying to promote the newsletter was pausing for 30 secs after every sentence she says:

"hello"

*pause*

"can i speak to XXXXX?"

"yes speaking" I said.

*pause super long*

"I would like to congratulate you that you have been selected...."

*pause*

"to receive a free exclusive newsletter.... *blah blah blah*"

end of my limited patience this morning... at which point I said "Sorry I'm not interested."

And not to mention the promoter was speaking with an unrecognisable accent that makes deciphering what she was saying extra difficult.

sigh.... hope the day turns better as it goes...and oh yes... I'm feeling bitchy today.

wow agape huh?? tall order....

Your Love Style is Agape



You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.

Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.

You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.

Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.

For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

Friday, September 02, 2005

Finally I completed this piece

Started on this piece about half a month ago but somehow lost the inspiration to carry on. Anyway just a short piece that plays on the similarities of music and perhaps love.... how a musical piece can manipulate one's emotions and feelings.... connoting different images in our minds....

the playful tease of a flirty tune, the sweetness of a romantic song, the zealous fever of a passionate serenade, the sudden shock of a song of conflict and the silent departure as the song ends....

enjoy...

His Song
Softly he whispers in my ear,
Gentle yet wistful, delicately clear,
Lightly it danced on the mild spring breeze,
Lifting the spirit with apparent ease.

Tenderly he
sings to my heart,
Kind and loving, deeply passionate,
Subtly it grew, like a rose it blossomed
Glowing like ambers in the bosom.

Ardently he croons to my being,
Intense and devoted, zealously wooing,
Fervently it burned with white heat on its flames
Ablaze, it sets the soul on fire.

Madly he tears through my mind,
Quick and violent, vehemently blind,
Suddenly it rents with the keenness of steel
Slicing the heart like tender veal

Coldly he left my empty shell,
Aloof and distant, eerily hell,
Silently it faded with the body grown weary
Leaving naught but a scar in memory.

ok ok... I'm feeling a little frivolous today... kekeke

Part Expert Kisser


You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

Part Romantic Kisser


For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance
You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea
The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood
It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Banished Assassin.

Where You Lived: Russia.

How You Died: Suicide.

Sort of reminds me of Robin Hobb's books on the Farseer series...

hmmm..... how can 40% still be wierd??

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird...
But too damn weird to do anything about it!

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

It's time to parteeeeeee.....

You Are a Mai Tai

You aren't a big drinker, but you'll drink if the atmosphere is festive.
And when you're drunk, watch out! You're easily carried away.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

The value of relationships

Started out this morning being very frustrated. My mom was telling me how she exchanged the jade bangle I bought for her when I went to China a few years ago with one of her neighbourhood friends for another bangle. And she showed me what she got in return... it was a far lower grade of jade than the one I've bought for her...

Her reasoning?? She couldn't fit into the one I bought since she put on weight, so she decided to exchange it for something she could fit into. She even said that there's value in keeping gold but jade and precious stones have little value in collection. At that point, all rational thought left me. I couldn't believe what she did. She exchanged a jade bangle that was worth S$400 for some jade bangle that probably cost less than a quarter of that price!!! And it was not the money that was bothering me... how could she bring herself to give away something I bought specially for her, knowing full well that I bought it specially for her.

It is a pity that she couldn't fit into the bangle but the value of the item is not just in the dollars and cents. It was in the thought that went with the act of buying something expensive for her. I knew what poverty she went through when she was young and the struggles she went through to bring us up. She had always wanted a good piece of jade, whether it fits or not and never been able to afford it. I bought it for her, because I know she would love it. And she GAVE IT AWAY!!! Whatever happened to the value of love, of mother-daughter relationship that went with that little token from me??

I didn't know whether to be angry, frustrated or sad....

Monday, August 08, 2005

Yummy...

Finally went to the Japanese restaurant that I liked and had the long-desired Japanese meal.... totally yummy!! The name of the restaurant is Matsuo Restaurant, located at Goldhill Plaza - the one that looks like an orange-colored rocket near Novena MRT Station.

They've recently renovated their restaurant so instead of having that old, dingy sliding door for an entrance, it's now in modern veneer finish. However, there's still no signboard upfront so it's either you know the place or you'll definitely miss it. It's just right next to the Internet gaming centre at Goldhill Plaza.

KK ordered a Matsu Bento (the original name was longer and I can't remember it) and I had the Saba Shioyaki. Of course, we shared so we can have a taste of everything... keke... The bento is really a value-for-money deal because it gives you a taste of everything, from sushi to sashimi to tempura. The Saba Shioyaki was grilled perfectly.... just a perfect touch of natural fish oils with a very tiny slight hint of salt to bring out the fresh and sweet flavor of the fish. Yummulicious. And the best part is, the ingredients are fresh!!

If you ever thought Sakae sushi or any of those conveyor belt stuff are good... think again!! And try out this place. But note the operation hours though... they are usually open for lunch and dinner only... which means they close abt 2 pm and open again abt 6 - 7pm (not sure of dinner hours). Lunch hours have less people than dinner time, so might be a good chance to enjoy the quiet comfort of a cozy family restaurant.

*wish I took photos..*

Tuesday, August 02, 2005